Uhh I AM SO STUPID ! AHHHHH Whats wrong with meeee?!! what the heck is going on with me?? Why can't I just get ong xa's jokes and fool around with him too to make both happy? Why can't I done that all a long but always take stuff so seriously now it turned out that I'm sad make ong xa feels weird. eh everything I done are stupid, why can't I just happy with his jokes so then everything can be fine? Why do I have to be so typical? ahhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!! Soooo many questions on my head need answers ! Ong xaa I really love you, the more I love you the more I'm afraid that I'm going to loose you by den I would ended up dying. Ong xaa I really need you, that was why I take stuff seriously between our love. I really tried to be happy with the jokes because I know you love me and I know you were just playing. But I dont know why! I really Dont know why I feel so weird and sad and down and AHHHH ! After I made you feel down and weird, I feel stupid by all I had done. Ong xaa Im sorriee, I kept being afraid that by all those stupid thing I made would make you tired of me and wanna leave me! Ong xa please dont! I'm really scared, ong xaa if I dont have you in my life, all the dreams and all my goals of life are also gone if yer goneee. Without you, Im nothing ong xaa. Please dont ever leave me alone. Ong xaa I am sorrryy, I dont know what to tell you, because I have a lot on me right now, I just want to make you happy, but I dont know why I really dont want to be sad when you siad yer jokes, but my body just turned down. AHHHH I CANT EVEN CONTROL MY OWN SELF. like WHAT THE HECK?! I really wanna scream, I really want you to understand. So many times I told myself to think before do or say something, but when things come, my stupidity of me arose again. I can't help it ong xa ); . Maybe I'm so immature or something that can't think or do anything right. But the thing that I know that would never be wrong, EVER, is my heart needs you to keep its beats, without you, it would stop beating. I'm serious about that, I really am.
Ong xa oii, I dont know what to tell you, I just want you to understand because I dont know how to explain, I feel really weird right now! Its like I want you to know that I love you and I really am sorry for being sad and down, but if I say that, it's going to bother you and you willl be more down and have long breaths and everything. So I don't wanna put more on you, now I'm sitting here, with the hope that we are going to be happy again, and will never have those kind of sad moments anymore. I just don't know what to do to solve this, I'm so useless ong xaa. );
Ong xa oii, I really am sad when we had a lot of bad moments around this time, I don't know what to do but keep praying everyday for you to be happy till forever, for you to trust me at all time because I would never lie to you. I prayed for our love would last forever. It's not that I just only pray, but I also tried and will trying hard until FOREVER. Ong xa believe me, after today, I will try even harder, try my best to destroy all the bad moments between us. there will be only happiness. I know I said this a lot of time already and I still can't do it, but at least I tried hard, and I will always trying hard, I believe one day I will accomplish it to bring your happiness to you. Ong xa, Im sowwiee, I really can't concentrate to study right now. Because the feeling that I want to tell you something but then I don't know how to say it and afraid its going to make you feel weirder. I have done enough stupid things, I just want you to be happy, ong xa I'm sorry. T-T
I love you ong xaa, I will try my best to bring you happinessss. Ong xa believe me, I really am going to no mater how much it costs. I just wanna lay on your arms right now, I wanna feel the warmness from you ong xa, I feel so cold at this place. Ong xa, I wanna be withyou at all time. Please, don't ever let go of me. Ong xa, I love you a lot, with all my heart, always and forever.
Em yeu anh <3 Sorry for all I did babe, I will be a better me, so don't be sad or weird no more. I will bring you happiness <3
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