What's all this? Why are they came all up at da same time that confused me. Isn't it too much? Why all da bad things happened? Why now? 0o I'm so lost dun even know why I keep askin "why". Im not complaining or anything, since its good these bad things happen to me rather than happen to him. Seeing him being alright helped so much. Maybe my prayers are coming true. I'll get troubles and bad things for Thui no matter wah. I hope I can, just to see my hunnie lives in a life of happiness. No matter how much it costs, still worth it.
Why am I keep stressing myself? Why am I keep thinkin too much about these bad things? Why cant i just close my eyes and let these all over easily? Why!? 0oh Lord can I be stronger? Only a little bit is okaay, i just needa be stronger to get all over these thigs. Why asthma keeps bothering me? Why cant I do something when people harrassing & stopping me to do my own things? How did I hide things from someone I loved da most while I made a promise? Arent these things came accidently? There's no answer for all, except the last question.. I didnt meant to hide, I didnt remember, I didnt wanna think about it, I didnt... IDK WHAT I WAS THINKING! omggg why is this feelin keep bugging meeeeee.
I hate yu asthma
I hate yu the 3 people
I hate yu lies.
I hate.. yu.. Ngoc...
I hate things around happening like this. Now I cant even face him while he was saying its okay and stuff. Since i couldnt even face myself... Oh god, I hate myself for being a liar. That was da only thing i hid from him... Buh lying = liar no matter how much a person lies. I feel horrible.
Why tears agen. I hate these tears, why keep running?! It's not the time to cry! Yu cant cry Ngoc yu CANT! Tears are helpless. Tears... I'm lost
Dunno wah to say. Dunno how to relieve all these stress. Dunno wah to do. Dunno how to face myself. Dunno how to face him. Dunno... I'm really lost. I need help. Buh I really can tell no one. I feel horrible...
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